眼泪

最近一个好朋友（1）分了手
好几年的感情
近几天 都特意的过去看看
每个人对待分手的方式也不一样
所以看下他（1）要死了没
是因为是很好的朋友才这样说

我经历过另外一位朋友（2）的breakup
他（2）真的是要生要死天崩地裂海枯石烂
eh 等等，好像用错成语了
那时候我们整班朋友还真的给他折腾了几个月
也是因为是好朋友才愿意给他折腾

好这位（2）朋友先不说
说回（1）

见到他时感觉他就在崩溃的边缘
听着他细说着那过程,原因,后果
每一次他回忆起某些与前女友的细节
虽说没看到眼泪，但是他眼神与那颤抖的嘴唇
强忍着不哭的他 看到也蛮可怜
当然因为在外面餐厅，如果在没人地方 他应该都会放声大哭
他们分手原因与理由，谁对谁错，与我无关
我也只是个旁观者，我可以不喜欢不赞成谁或谁的做法
但是朋友也只能陪着，那些大众意见我都没给
因为谁不是会说一样的话？
那些话都很无畏

哎 人生啊 

Physically unable

First day of combat group gym reopen
only myself, another senior and my master
So what will happen when this few people?
Extra goddamn training.
Well luckily this time he actually let us off.
not as harsh because just reopened.
My back kinda gave up.
Because i tried a tornado kick few days ago
Have to admit i realllyyy getting old.
This might offense a lot of people but err. comparing what i use too really way too different
Also with 3 months of rest my shin seriously became tofu
each kick into the bags it hurt so much.
Have to stop time to time just let the pain to cold off.

And now i just so freaking tired writing this
wanted to sleep but can't because i just ate
have to let the food digest a little first
I might actually fall asleep typing this
But still. so much has changed since this pandemic
even now the gym can't have contact and just hit the bag
do some exercise.
most importantly i can't spar !!!!
The most fun things to do.

screw it..
going to bed

Cat > rat > boxing

Its been a while since i have hit some bag or pads.
finally have the heart to go open the gym and hit some, but the gym's stairs get taken by a cat
the cat has been hunting bird and rat to have dinner there.
This time the cat ate half the rat and left half of it rot there.
right in front of the gym door.
When i saw that i was spit out unconsciously "fucking hell" and most important when i open the door
It jam the door because it stuck at the gap between the door and the floor.
witnessing this make me just want to leave the place and pretend i never come here.
So took me quite sometime to have it clean up and sprayed dettol all over the stairs case.
but the smell kinda remain until i chuck it into the big trash bin outside.

Well... at least i did hit a while on the bags today.
Sometimes i record myself train when i train alone, just to see if i making some mistake.
time to time wanted to post on insta or fb story,
but what stopping me is that my master is following me on it.
probably when i upload it he will judge and says something like:
why is that kick so low
your hand drop! keep your hands up,
stance not wide not stable.
bend your knee don't straighten it

today i dint even bother to put on my lens, because it just wasteful.
pff, so well, here some of it

well first of all its a very half ass hitting, and look at 0.47, when I dint hit bags for too long and i felt the pain on my shin. then i stop and rub it. it was funny, because last time wouldn't felt anything unless i hit someone's elbow or knee. 

2nd recording.

0.42 did a kinda fail "question mark kick", it will looks better if initial faint kick raise higher.
0.48-did a pretty good in out in then following combo. but overall my hands drop too low
should have keep it at head level.
1.03- i tried some boxing skill its call "philly shell" just for awhile then i straight out gave up
because i executed it very bad.
although this skill is essential in boxing but in kick boxing or muaythai its not too useful because they can low kick you while you doing your head movement.

well.. i dint film much after these 2 videos i just keep hitting the bag for around 30 mins.
just to refresh my skill a little before the class reopen.