喜欢

我曾经看过这句话，
“喜欢一个人，是一个人的事”
对，我觉得就是这样

喜欢，就是一个人事
无论是旁人，家人，朋友
就连被喜欢的那一位
都与他们无关

对我来说，喜欢一个人是很安静的
静静无声，毫不喧哗
就像在阅读
读着你喜欢的书，读着那内容在细说
笑着，开心着，哭着，悲伤着，焦着，烦恼着
也许你也会受其影响，情感跟其晃动，
但是
从未打扰任何人
无声
也就喜欢看着，在刚好的距离，不近不远
所以喜欢，是一个人的事

喜欢一个人，是一件很自私但同时也很无私
自私是因为从未理会那被喜欢的那一位的感受
无私是因为从未理会那位也会不会刚好喜欢你

当然，也有人的喜欢，是吵闹的，劈里啪啦的
他们对爱也一样，都说在嘴边
吵吵闹闹，谁都知道
那么你呢？

友

誓友，

当你收到这封信时，你生日肯定过了
但是祝福永远不迟
反正写这些时，是在 25 号前

近半年前 听到了这首歌
“浪子回头” 一首台语歌
歌词如果用华语来看 可能稍微偏差
但是，歌词里细说的正是我想对你说的话
其中一段如下

“親愛的　可愛的　英俊的　朋友 
垃圾的　沒品的　沒路用的　朋友 
佇坎坷的路騎我兩光摩托車　橫豎我的人生甘哪狗屎 
我沒錢沒某沒子甘哪一條命　朋友阿　逗陣來搏 
菸一支一支一支的點　酒一杯一杯一杯的乾
請你要體諒我　我酒量不好賣給我衝康 
時間一天一天一天的走　汗一滴一滴一滴的流 
有一天　咱都老　帶某子逗陣 浪子回頭”

浪子回头，是意思着回到来这里
带着你的另一半，回到来这里
回到来时，我们依然能通宵谈天
然后通宵谈天后不睡去跑步
再喝个可乐酸梅，然后继续谈着以往的青春和以后的梦想
要不然谈着废话连天也无所谓
虽然，已现在的年龄，
通宵再跑步，有很大可能真的会断气
进黑箱车

我们都长大了，样貌外部身高都不一样了
也许就连生活模式方向，谈吐也不一样了
但是我们都知道，在那心底，我们依然是那个我们
时间与距离永远都不会是让我们疏远的理由
所以誓友，当你回来时请你务必听这首歌
多的我也不说了，你知道我也知道
还有，
生日快乐

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Real

So, what happened?

You don't know me, then you fall in love with me, and then you know me

Bojack Horseman

I love this show, what this shows bring up sometimes is just too real.
Although i haven't actually finish all of the season yet.
watching this is of course not for the animation,
but for the plot, the joke, the dialogue
and some of it, are just too real, almost feels like it happened to you.
i havent got into the dark part yet, i heard that season 5 and 6 is very sad 
which i just started on season 5 ep 1,
well, if you too free during mco time, do give bojack horseman a go.

Safe

Just came back not long ago and I miss it already,
the tranquility that felt in the water cannot be found anywhere in the city
and of course tons of pretty fishes and corals
Oh btw, I crossed my legs like that because we are preparing to enter water
and then captain decided to take a photo while I am wearing my fins 
On the right are the dive guide for the day named Brice, an DMI from the dive shop.
Nice guy
there is another dive buddy already went down in the water that time, so he is not in the pic. 

Well enough of the diving, cant go until next year and with this pandemic going on, 
probably anywhere are dangerous, and most likely my next year competition is canceling again
which have to drag another year, im really getting old by then.
the only good thing is i dont need to go over the torturing weight cutting process again.
sigh. 
Finished training just now, i felt that my stamina gotten a little better.
probably finished a vacation everything relaxed even my body.
well of course most probably not, must be the few stamina training I had.
hopefully the vaccine coming out soon, 
so, by then, stay safe

bubbles

 Finally took a longer leave and went to dive, 
Been close to 2 years, so i went all out, maximum dive the dive shop can provide for the time I'm there
4 days, dived 8 times.

first day was the most exhausting day, 4 hours drive, 2 hours of ferry,
couldn't even check in yet when I arrived
and went straight into my refresher dive in the morning then 2 boat dives in the afternoon.
I just came back and I miss it already.

One of the best dive, because I saw a shark this time, a blacktip, medium size
it was intriguing, but scary too because it swam so close to us,
Probably just 2 m apart from me.
all of the diving buddies are just looking at it until it went away. it was curious and checking on us
after the dive is finished everyone is saying like that was too close for comfort 
even its a non-aggressive shark type, its still a shark, too many teeth.

also saw a non composure diver that move around in the water too much, couldn't control the buoyancy good enough and step on a coral and broke a small part of it, that scene broke my heart.

ughhhh

well, not a people are very comfort in the water. hardly can blame them, also their dive count also not much.

even myself is just slightly over 20 logged dives. 

well, monsoon happening soon, see you tioman next year.