Tiny may it be, but no means miserable. There are souls who'll feel your sorrow, for you are the world

Tuesday 27 April 2021

至不灭的你 To Your Eternity


Found a good gem few weeks ago, wanted to put here but always forget

"To your Eternity" 
it is written by the same writer of "The Silent Voice" which I have put in the same blog previously

Although this is an anime series but the first episode you can definitely just watch as a standalone film
the story telling, the drive of emotions, the wills of the living, the yearn of memories
the wistfulness of one. all these it brings out so perfectly in this very first episode.
nevertheless, one of the best anime I have watch in the near season so far. 

side track a little, anime not only meant for kids or u know otakus or what so ever,
there are tons of anime are meant for adults, and the messages it brings sometimes outweigh movies nowadays.

alright back "To your Eternity", the very first  episode really give me a good thought on life
we can't choose where are born, like the boy in the Ep1, born in a harsh icy snow lands.
never once taste fruits. 
Whole village went for finding new warmer lands, only leaving him and other older people in the village
And until he is the only one left. After awhile only he decided to try to finds those left.
i suggest you watch it while having tissues with you.

Life is fragile.
I always have a plant in my room, remind myself that knowing to at least take care a plant
at least i will know to take care myself.
If i couldnt even take care of a plant
how could take care even myself? let alone taking care others.
I have a monstera now, very interesting plant.
got holes all over the leaf (grew up this way)
but now really kinda looks yellowish, guess i really cant even take care a plant myself.

Thursday 15 April 2021

Before Your Eyes (game)

Was wondering youtube and come across a interesting game

- Before Your Eyes

It has very interesting gameplay, best to play with a webcam attach
and try not to blink
the whole game is story telling about a boy name Benjamin.
whenever you blink, you might skipped a small or large portion of the story
just like our life sometimes we do describe it pass in a blink of an eye

im not saying anything here, you can watch the gameplay story if you want to.
but heads up, it is so sad and painful to watch.
letting us think twice we should really appreciate the life we are living now
that... we are still here, that we are still alive.

Thursday 1 April 2021

成長

人不知不覺中會變成自己討厭的人
怎樣説呢
我就有個朋友,他爸呢
就是那種目中無人,沒禮貌,性情不好
喜歡駡人,不聽人勸,對員工不好什麽什麽的
然後呢,這朋友說這他爸這樣這樣
很討厭
但是我看了許久都發現,他其實
都很像他爸,當然是參稀了的
因爲對著他爸長大,所以他都覺得這些是正常的
雖然沒他爸那麽嚴重,剛認識他時就是
總有那種目中無人自己最高在上的感覺
經過歲月的磨練還有我們整班的勸導與調整
現在倒是改了不少,但是那個pattern 還是隱約會出現

那麽我呢?我非常討厭駕車插隊
現在反而自己會做,最近檢討了自己
能不做就不做,不是急著拉屎小便
都會乖乖排隊,然後默默的詛咒這插隊的擊敗
我也很討厭不爭取不成長我進步的人
想了想,我最近幾年感覺我在原地踏步了

有天練完拳了留下我,我師傅,還有另一位小senior(比我小五年但算是我師兄)
因爲大家都是IT 背景 所以就談到了工作
就説到那位小senior,從mco時畢業到現在做工都是wfh
連老闆都只見了一面,現在meeting 也沒有開vc
可能分分鐘哪天回去了,沒人記得他
所以我跟師傅都recommend 他說
得空記得找找老闆,至少要給老闆知道你的存在
然後draft 那些 monthly task 做過了什麽
要不然就直接約老闆吃飯
説到這個你呢
我記得我第一份工,因爲based 在 shell office
老闆不會見到我,所以每個月我會send 一封email 給老闆
說我在這學什麽做什麽,最後send 到老闆叫我出來飯
説著是potential promote,但是過不久我跳槽了
之後又回來了 哈哈,但是薪水升的很快

過後問到了師傅,之前他説過他在一間software 公司升到了product director 了
到頂了
過不久後還是離職了,進了TnG 做product manager
問了他說,爲什麽到頂了 還要離開
第一 他説 因爲 公司給不到成長了
lets say,工作了 4 年反反復復的 但是就只學了一年的東西
他説 這樣他就不呆了,然後在TnG 做,做了一年像是學了4年的東西
第二,就是TnG 給得起人工

想了想,還真的對
我做了好幾年,感覺還真的學到的東西,比我做的時間少
而且,比例很大
所以説,我感覺我原地踏步了許久

哎,夜深人靜,而且我腳剛剛踢腫了
是時候睡了