lying on bed

with pillow covering the head

then ?

crying out loud ...

best way ..

for man , boy

hold it so hard for what

fact . is always kill people's dream

and of cause

my dream ...

crying in heart

without tear drop on eye

bleeding

deep scar

sometimes

i just need an explanation

reasons ...

no matter it is fake or real

truth or lie

at least just tell me

trusted on you

trusted on myself

but trust just feel like gone out now

i not even trust myself anymore

now just like retarded ...

only bad thought running in my head

and i already scare what will happen next

try to avoid ... escape ... running ...

what to do ... ... what to do

21 -Dec 2010

Probably good day?

ehhh ...

of cz ??

just hang out with friends

its a good start after all

start with i doing a spotlight

a bright 1 ... 40k volt !

shine like a star

accompany a friend and his girl friend(2pair)

just feel like i am unnecessary

oh well ... what lucky is sudden another 1 had join in

so make me spare 20k volt to him ...

i am not so bright anymore ...

okay skip until the movie i had watched

oh well ... for me .. nt really nice

or maybe i doesnt like a movie like that

cz ... the story is no point man ...

it should be a point even it is a funny movie

okay done wif the movie

after the movie

at pavillion watch the snow ...

1st time i see it ...

its pretty and nice

of cz its not a real snow ...

what a good memory actually

good movement

with right" people

and i...

and i thought

i found my romance and....at there ...

sigh .. what a joke ?

no never be true

and all bad emotion just came after i go back from there

mixed up in a single fucking day

maybe i just too much

or i take too care?

and cry for what?

fool