split

Doing something everyday,
Prior to full lock down I aim to stretch every single day.
and so far I did, (well of course I did skip a day or 2)
I wanted try to able to do a full split, 
well I was able to split as when I was gymnast when im 7 to 12 years old
then now stop being one for 2 decades and got a lot older all these split will kill me if I dint do it correctly and slowly.
I dint aim to able to split in like 30 days or so, I gave myself a slow pace
where people should do at least a 5 mins I only did like 30 seconds x2.
but still making progress, now there are still like a palm length before able to fully touch the ground when doing split
but comparing when i started, it is a great improvement.
and also doing one leg on table, standing stretch forward i can actually kiss my knee now.

I sketch too lately. i been sketching every single object near my table.
its been like 8 sketches, it still looks horrible but!

i can feel each of my stroke is getting much more stable and line is straigher
even shading feels and looks much more natural.
There are being genius and doing lots of practice. since im not a genius in drawing
then i have no choice to be the latter.

a tiny little thing like these in life make me feels slightly moving forward
even if it is a little.

think

I used to able to think myself to sleep.
its sounds weird I know, but for a longest time i could do that
all sort of thought, from problems to imagination.
and when im not noticing i fell asleep, then its already next day. fresh and awake. 
But as i grow older, this magic kind of stop.
Now if i think at night its just gonna keep me awake.
One thought after another, spiraled deep into the void; endlessly.
then the next thing i know i have been lying on my bed for hours and still awake.

and nope im not having insomnia now, i choose to stay up late today.
by all means. im tired af now.
and tomorrow still a workday. gonna go.