Just another time ... Another night ...
Couldn't fall sleep tonight

Just another stranger ... Another passer
why worry so much for ?

So I experienced ... So I involved
Rejected ... Accepted ... Left out ...Embraced

Its just a part of life
So i cherish ...So i treasure
Today and tomorrow ...
This friendship ... This memory

and forget about yesterday
Even i know it was hurt ... =D

Another street ... Another light ...

Long road i walked but I don't mind ...

Another mirror ... Another me ...

what would I do if I was there ?

Another lover ... Another companion

Was it a lifetime or passing by ?

I lay down , I think , I dream , I know

It was my fault to misunderstood

No tears drop ,No red-eye

Cause was hurt much more long ago

Been know chance less ... been know was fault

Why would I still go ?

Love been always a fault ...

why would we still chase so ?

Vans

i dont know how to describe my feeling right now

but err ...

can i say it hurt ?

i don't know ...

but what is it anyway?

just now Talk about promises with someone ...

broken promises

huh ... funny things I still remember all the promises

I made with her

But did she ?

The more i think the more i feel i am fucking retarded =D

Even its ald past for years

Memory sometimes come out with bad shit

and it just spoilt my mood

The most funny things is ...that time i thought she likes me =D ...

so i go and confess all things turn out like shit ...

"you cant "afford" me " ... yeah i am not rich why ? you like me right ?

" no i am sorry " then why you act like ... likes me ?u treat me so good n ... you just like you like me

"i treat everyone also like this geh " ......

ha ... fck this shit =D !

no more confession for me i guess =D

this wound just pain enough to scare me don't confess to girl again =D ...

will i really recover from this ? *laugh*

Happy birthdau bro

Ytd was 1 of my best friend birthday party ... We had a lot of fun ... I enjoyed it so much ...
And again happy birthday to him
Lets hope we have another party like this

life ?

Life is like a movie , and death is the forward button

skip the life to the end of the credit .

If like i said , life is like a movie

So we are the main character ,

and yet we are the director too .

Because we plan , direct our life till we satisfied

But yet , probably the director in our life aint ourselves

but our parents .

they direct , plan for us ... but yet just to satisfied themselves

they got no wrong , they just thought it will be good in the movie

they never understand the role's thought their potential ,

So we must be the one who direct your own movie

because this movie always going have an end ...

end with a laugh and satisfied happy ending .

And there must be another main character in our life

or maybe not

so when she/he come by

you may ask yourself is he/she is the another main character in your movie

just a pass by person or supporting roles ?

we never know ...

what we need to do just live ,

with a satisfied story and a happy ending .

Laughing Hard

its been long time

for laughing this hard ...

just too hard until my face is tired

and my stomach is painful

but the topic just aint good for laughing ..

what do i mean ? ha ...

i not really knw how to explain

but it just like using a sad story to laugh

btw its my story xDD holy cow

but anyway thx to my bros

one hard laugh really make my day

cry with smile , laugh with tears

share your tales , to your dears . (wrote by vanx)

its always better than you take it all alone

way better

We were ..once

We were once best friend , now our friendship are all fragmented .

We were once talk from heart to heart , now we are hiding everything .

We were once all talking together , now only few of us .

We were once brothers , now we are enemy .

We were once great enemy , now we are allies .

We were once lover , now we are stranger .

We were once love to each other, now what left is hatred and jealousy ;

Jealousy grows from love , and it will slain the host - love ...

By _ Vanx

7/14 && 7/15

ah what a good day =D ..

btw i wake up at 11.30 =D

later u will know why i mentioned when i wake

yesterday ... 6 friends had come out and talk

confessedly...

for 'bout 6 hours ? or more lol ~

well of cause . we express our bad feeling

to each other

just like i don't like you do this do that

or your characteristic ...

haha ... even we having a little scolding there

but yet ... i appreciate it ...

and after that ulti 4 am in the morning =O=

finally decide to go home ,

but 3 of us (including me) not feel wan to

so we went to mamak , and start talking again

well , 3 of us are the "oldest" but dont get it wrong

not out age is oldest but out friendship ...

we know each other for more than 11 years ? or maybe 13 ++

and i appreciate God give them to having in my life

they are such as my own brother ...

and btw i am 18 XD

so u can imagine when we know each other ? 6? lol

or even younger =D

and last ... when we looking back to our past

we will probably found out that actually we change ...

i know how i was .. and i know how i am =D

we getting older will just getting mature ...

not a kid anymore ehh =D ?

well thats all for this ...

good day =D

rhythming =D ! write by me !

I walked I ran I rushed to find thee ,

Will thee still there to wait for me ?

Or thee bored waiting and find other me ,

I look , I see , I still seek for thee ,

And I rhythm these phrase just for thee .

Hoping thee will come back for me ,

My love will still there wait for thee ,

But where thee will now shall be ?

I still loving thee and hope thee come back to me .

So please tell me where thee now be ,

I am always ready anything to find thee .

Nothing can stop me for reach to thee .

BY VANX ( Copyrighted ) xP

XDD !

Time ehh? ah... ha...

Ahh well ... its been long time since i blogging again

oh well u knw ... that's my style ! =P

Probably you will ask , why the hell you come back

blogging again

err ... i will only tell i suddenly want ...

doesnt have any strange propose

or happened any sad thing =0!

just one thing lols...

time really pass so fast ...

i almost end my first semester

next week will be semester final exam

while i still here facebooking or watching anime or blogging

well , that's crap

i don;t like to push myself hard

or maybe this is just a reason to let myself feel better?

XDD ahaha who knows , oh by the way i never study

when exam , that's my style XD

And today ... when i am looking at those secondary student ,

Uniform , ahhaa .. then i think ...that's not my time already

not for me ... now formal shirt is for me lol

on last monday i wear full formal with leather shoes

just because for the 5 min presentation !

a lot people is looking at me when taking lrt =.=

i think this quotes on there mind "kid's face adult shirt "

ahahah

tomorrow will be my last class ...

good luck for me in my next week exam =D

new life ? or jammed on past ?

i will be going study in college

for diploma , IT course ...

in April 11th

well ... its good that i still can get in to the college

because my result of SPM is shit ...

i don't know i should say i am lucky or what

just don't need to retake the exam again ...

but i will just put everything in my future

study good ... and after that get paid good ...

i really hope the CGPA can get till 3.5 ++

so i can don't need to pay back the loan ...

well ... just do everything i can ...

any effort i can put

and something ...

i feel ... release ...

i don't know how describe the feeling but ...

i feel good .. release but yet lonely and kinda sad

when ... knowing the people i care finally will have

some companion ... i smile a little ... but my heart squeeze

well ... i ... i ...

i think i really need to find a girl friend xDD

i tot wanna find it in college .. but i just look like a fucking child =.=

or just a boy in 15 -16 years old ...

damn ... i should happy becz i got the baby face

but god dint gift me a taller body ..

but i never blame for it ... because i know some people nt even have legs or something

so i always appreciated that i born in a peaceful country and i have a perfect working body...

owh well .. just a little diary ...

Bring It ON

Hmm ...

Its been so long since i update my blog

oh well .. and i should delete all of the old post

because when i read it ..

1st thing on my mind is ...

"what kind of language is it?? "

i dont knw why i post those shit on ...

but i knw that time i was truly sad

Oh well ..

you guys see the moon today?

its big ... ! well of cz ... my fren told me to see XD

thx anyway quite long time since i see a full moon =)

And er...

where should i start this ...

did u guys ever being push aside ?????

by friends ? the one you trusted the most ??

the one you like perhaps ??

well its hard to say ...

maybe because of my own personalities problem ?

who knows ?

i am yours friend ... i am not your servant or something or slave

what u ask me to do i can say no ...

and i always help ... but what return is ... not a even a thx but scolding

Fuck... i did my best ... so this is what gv back to your friend who helping you

i am so selfless but from now on =D

i wont

and what is the definition of friends??

-a person that i know their name and talked before

- a person that always hanging out together

-a person that i always talk to ..

OR a person who can use for ...

- a person ............... blah blah blah

that is so much ... so why we put "normal , good or best "

best friend or close friend is we always meet and hanging together

owh well ... or maybe wan make it more close and we call "brothers , or sisters"

but in my life .. this so called brothers did they really treat me as i treat them?

eh... no i think =D they just kick me out when i have no more usable room

or maybe from the 1st place i have no usable for them =)

and er .. the one i trusted the most , the one i like her before

now suddenly change into hating ...well i cant tell the feel why

but ... ha

and now my happiness turn into

hatred , jealousy , and sadness

but now on ... i will put much effort i can into my college and my future ..

care oni myself now =D

this is the only thing i learn from them

and after i really succeed

and i will tell them that day ...

BRING IT ON

what do i care now