You can smile You can laugh , but wana tell u i wan crying now

1228 ...
why is so important ?
to me ? ... not anymore from today ...
since this ... since this 1228
and i hate promise ...
promise is curse ...

i really could tell you guys ..
you can laugh , you can smile
but i am crying now ...
why ? dun ask me this shit question to me
i hate to answer ...
and .. DONT FELT SORRY ...
what i talk i what say ...
my is too cruel .. but i hope i can tell someone
i am not a cruel guy ..
but who could listen ? ..
but no one ...
i really need shoulder to crying out loud ...
who can gv me now .. huh ?
ha. .. my heart .. ald pieces ...
i dont wan it become a powder ...
ald fragment ... i dun wan it can be blow away ...
i hope i can die soon as possible
dont worry i wont suicide ...
my life ald meaningless .
i would just stay my life like this
lost hope ... broken promise ...
who could understand tis pain ?



I am Only But A boy ..
there is a limit
to my abilities

VanX
sobbing ...

What i need for ?

i heard a news ... for just now ..
i sudden felt ... my heart ...
broke ...hope .. lost ... but why should i ?
... why i had to so ?
ha .. i am such idiot ...
just always 1 way talking , thinking , answer
i think she will never be remember what i told
or i am just a last choice that could be throw anytime
mean. a junk ...
aha ... i could cry now ..
but i ask myself again
why should i ?
i could bleed , i could hurt
i could die but i cant cry ...

Talking loud . Smiling Face . Regret less
Joyful voice . These thing for only hiding my crap
tonight i have talk wit my fren for whole night
until now .. just back home
for posting this crap
... why i had to ?
i dont know don't ask me ...
never

.. i looking outside the window ...
i saw the sky getting blue ..
my feeling getting blue too ...
i ask myself what i really need for ?
i dont knw ... i only can ans this shit to myself

maybe i could lie to myself
nth is really i need from now ...
why i had to do this shit .. ?




Faithless
VanXCheW

I HATE TITTLE

zz...
i really cant even think a tittle for this
well ... of cause
i am dying in this holiday ..
WHY ?
easiest way to tell ...
my liver is dying ...

err .. talk back of genting ...
SHIT
i really dunno how to say about that day
i felt so dumb = =
zzzzzz
okay i put some video and picture for it
but its still fun




err how ever .. i stuck on the picture =.=...
i dunno how to say of that stuck ..
well i put it another day maybe =D

by the way
i change my song
old song ever
"Because you loved me " and "Hero"
by Celine Dion and Mariah Carey
i hope i dint write wrong their name =P
these is touching song by the way .

ermm..

tell me .... how long you dint touch ur blog vanx

erm... half month ?

bull shit ...

what ?

nothing

WEll i too damn shit long i dint even touch my blog =D
ahaha ... nt becz busy actually ...
but ... errr no "mood" ? ( what a retard reason )
so ... ... these day ..
my .. my .. liver are damaging badly
because why ?
because ... because
(tell it right now bitch )
opss sry ...
because i always too late sleep ...
too late ... as you can see now ... 2.50 am =X
sometime more worst .. about 6 am
blaa~ =(
well ... my night become days ... my days become night
now ... !! i am NIGHT STALKER ...
[ wtf ? dota? ]
well just tell its honestly
i kinda too damn boring ... TT
well perhaps i go some1 home =D
i will do this
well perhaps this year i will pass a lonely birthday again =X
why ... because nth =_= ...
just some kind six sense?
no ... because every time like this
my birthday just after X'mas sadly
thn my fren just alot go out at xmas
thn ... no $ ald =X
psps ...
nvm ba ... i have it ald ... lonely apart of me =3 ?
every1 has a lonely time ... i just nvm of this ...
xD bah ...
hope everything is fine =D just fine ...


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