lying on bed

with pillow covering the head

then ?

crying out loud ...

best way ..

for man , boy

hold it so hard for what

fact . is always kill people's dream

and of cause

my dream ...

crying in heart

without tear drop on eye

bleeding

deep scar

sometimes

i just need an explanation

reasons ...

no matter it is fake or real

truth or lie

at least just tell me

trusted on you

trusted on myself

but trust just feel like gone out now

i not even trust myself anymore

now just like retarded ...

only bad thought running in my head

and i already scare what will happen next

try to avoid ... escape ... running ...

what to do ... ... what to do