Grades

I woke up like 4am. and i couldn't fall back to sleep
im still sleepy, to the point there is slight headache
but to my surprise i actually got up.
and add to that surprise. i started doing my assignment and actually finished one of it
then started to look at another. until i take a break and went for cup noodles.
now im exactly sleepy. but i have a meeting 9oclock.
and by all means, im still need to work for the day.

My grades actually going pretty great. well for part timer with a full time job
all thanks to the low expectation and grading from the school.
im pretty sure all the part timer grade are pretty good. 
with little assignment and easy question.
if they are not, they probably they are just lazy. even lazier than i am.

疯狂，找死。固执，坚持。

我曾跟我朋友说过固执跟坚持只是一线之差，然而疯狂和找死也一样

痞子蔡的书里形容过疯狂，就是比冲动多一点，比找死少一点。

那么怎么区分疯狂与找死呢？
我给过例子给我朋友，我说驾摩多跑着180 丢个弯，如果不撞不飞成功丢了弯那叫疯狂，撞了就叫找死。
跳5层楼高的码头算是疯狂，但是如果没水退潮时跳那叫找死。
虽然列子没什么正确，这还是有点point。
大致上不死的话就算是疯狂吗？那倒也不是。
定义很模糊所以不用特意地去思考它。那么我有做过疯狂的事吗？
hmm，24小时没睡开车然后直接潜水3趟？还是群殴被捉去警察局（真的发生过）？要不然被朋友用摩多载然后被甩下摩多？也许还有很多很多找死的记忆但是现在还真的想不起。

说回去固执这回事，所以以疯狂和找死来相比的话，是否成功了过后就是坚持？如果失败了就是固执？也许也不是，但是如全世界的人指责你说你是错的然而你依然做着每个人都说你是错的东西，如果你不改就是固执吗？万一你这错的成功了还是什么的就会突然变成了坚持吗？

 

Work

Typing this post while at work in my office.
why u ask?
or why am i so free? 
because every shit from WIP has change to pending.
and today im in just hoping the parts i ordered reaching the office today
so i can upgrade the system before FMCO happen.
and all the travel letter i have now will not works starting tomorrow.
so what the hell?

actually, seriously i have nothing to do here for today.
and im going back at 3pm. but damnnn boss just came in.

screw it. not that i care.

ohh.. office going to close. means even parts arrive i cant do shit during FMCO.

stay home and game all day. my dream for 14 days.

Typo

i just kinda screen thru some of my old posts
realize that i made fuck tons of mistake.
most of the time there are missing words in between a sentence
but in my defend. my brain think faster than my fingers.
hence the missing words.

there goes again. stay home and no idea what to do.
vaccination in our country take forever.
for a herd immunity it going to take at least a year. with pace like this probably more
sign when will this go. there is so much time wasted.

oh yeah, not sure why lately whenever time at 9pm i always feels hungry
probably continuously eating chips during these time. since i got no training now
and my sleep time is kinda a mess.
damn it i should go and sleep

training

 I need to attend 3 full weeks of work related training.
and exam. all 9 to 5.
1st week starting tomorrow, then rest a week, then start again, rest, again
goddamnit.
not that i not willing to have extra skillset
but i got so many meetings and work i have to do in office.
and that got right in the middle of the busiest week.
tbh i still dont know how am i suppose to manage coming weeks work.
go office early and settle everything first, or stay late.
sigh. well good timing that at least currently there are no muay thai classes.
i can put more time on my work instead. (wait... why make it sound like i slack a lot).

no. even back when i have classes and i still work all the way to midnight plenty of time.
its just that im not as tired as i used to be.
although i still do very light exercise at home. (seriously too light to mention)
if this keep on i might have belly very soon.

awake

 There time and time where i should sleep but i chose to stay awake

why you ask? it just feels like it somehow wasted

or probably the fact i knows i wouldn't befall asleep

plus, it not like we all have anything to do with the lockdown again

looking at computer, surf the nets, play some games.

thats all we could do at the moment.

well not that i complaining, with cases volume like this sure its better to stay home instead

oh, so im force to buy a pair of shoes online. first time done so.

my current shoes kinda worn out, to the point it hurts my feet when i stand too long

its a good shoes i wore for a year and half. almost everyday.

oh yeah. just an update, i signed for an S&P for a house last month.

if everything goes smooth i will get my key at August.

well...

then starting August i will have to eat dirt to pass the month.

 

至不灭的你 To Your Eternity

Found a good gem few weeks ago, wanted to put here but always forget

"To your Eternity" 
it is written by the same writer of "The Silent Voice" which I have put in the same blog previously

Although this is an anime series but the first episode you can definitely just watch as a standalone film
the story telling, the drive of emotions, the wills of the living, the yearn of memories
the wistfulness of one. all these it brings out so perfectly in this very first episode.
nevertheless, one of the best anime I have watch in the near season so far. 

side track a little, anime not only meant for kids or u know otakus or what so ever,
there are tons of anime are meant for adults, and the messages it brings sometimes outweigh movies nowadays.

alright back "To your Eternity", the very first  episode really give me a good thought on life
we can't choose where are born, like the boy in the Ep1, born in a harsh icy snow lands.
never once taste fruits. 
Whole village went for finding new warmer lands, only leaving him and other older people in the village
And until he is the only one left. After awhile only he decided to try to finds those left.
i suggest you watch it while having tissues with you.

Life is fragile.
I always have a plant in my room, remind myself that knowing to at least take care a plant
at least i will know to take care myself.
If i couldnt even take care of a plant
how could take care even myself? let alone taking care others.
I have a monstera now, very interesting plant.
got holes all over the leaf (grew up this way)
but now really kinda looks yellowish, guess i really cant even take care a plant myself.